~meowz meowz dreaMlanDz~

2005-09-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

i'm disappointed in you.

If i could choose, should i spoil ur mood, or just be miserable myself? Either way I'm miserable, so might as well not spoil ur mood. Damn hard, esp when tears are threatening 2 fall, rite now.

¤ [ ç.Å.†.H.é.®.í.Ñ.ê ] ¤ ™

2005-09-27T00:51:00.000+08:00

i suppose everyone has regrets. Big or small ones. Me too, i've have several small ones, and one big regret. Sadly, i chose the cowardy way out. I wouldn't have been a good... anyway. Haiz, i shouldn't have brought this up, now i might as well hide in my room and be miserable all day.

I shall go sleep instead.

2005-09-22T14:16:00.000+08:00

I so REGRET!!! Jacky cheung is indeed stepping down after the show in Taipei next yr! Damn i missed the last chance in Singapore this yr.. ~~the only final chance will be watching it at Malaysia this coming Nov. But i duno where and how~~ =(

walked past this lovely terrace houses almost everyday.. so wish to be able to live in such a house one day. But dreams will only be dreams. Coz the house cost more than 1 millon!! When will i ever see such $$ in my bank account? Not in this lifetime.

I'm starting 2 feel like a damn robot, repeating the same sentences all over to people who dun like 2 hear from me. I didn't apply for this job 2 do A/R collections! Really should prepare my resignation letter and hand it over the next time i'm seriously pissed off at work.

Hallucinating? I seem 2 smell crunchy fried chicken... in my office?! haha.. will get myself a treat from KFC later after all this office-shit!

2005-09-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

It has come to the point where i wonder the purpose of blogging. Hope that someone might read about what happened and care?

I was in a state of xtreme depression last night, and shed so much tears. My eyes still ache, but i'm feeling better.

...Damn, i duno how 2 go on. Dun mind mi, from now onwards I'll only blog when there's something interesting or meaningful to write about. Till then.

2005-09-17T09:57:00.000+08:00

haven't stayed out late for quite awhile.. had a great time yesterdae! stuffed myself full with yummy food/desert, and behaved like a looney! haha.. slacked at Starbucks.. chill! 2 bad today still got work..

...and now i look so horrible! Like panda...and damn broke~

i miss my boy!! who's studying so hard nowadays.. and riding hard brakeless. Haiz, some stubborn people just like to take risks and be adventurous. But haha nvm, i'm one of those ppl too! =p

2005-09-15T13:22:00.000+08:00

I would love to watch "snow wolf lake".. but their tix really damn exp. Hopefully they will perform here again in the future.. before Jacky cheung retires and no more SWL! Although i've never watch a musical show b4.. their advestisement always captivate mi..

Dreams are always a mystery.. some say u dream of what u keep thinking abt in the day. This morn i woke up remembering i had a dream.. about someone whom i haven't thought of in a long time.. we dun control wad we dream.. so dun think too much abt it.

dan you shi hou wo hai shi tai zhi zhuo..

2005-09-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

horrible, horrible day at work today. So upsetting till i went toilet cry. Yah.. no use to brood over it. Thanks Elsie for all ur advices.. i'll try.. there's no other way anyway if not i'll drown myself in misery.

Yes, thanks Dear for all the hugs and sayangs too! =)

After work.. i spent abt $200!! haha.. on wad it's a secret... actually no big deal la. Just dun feel like mentioning here.. u'll know when u see mi! Feel much better after that.. haha $money$ therapy? and alamak i'm almost broke again!!

2005-09-11T02:59:00.000+08:00

haven't stayed up so late for so long...

anyway i called up Kimarie training ctr this morn.. but they say walk-in only, before 2pm on Sat. So in the end my colleague drove mi down.. and van is actually very comfortable! except the air-con got prob.. when i 1st got in my eyes tear! Reached tanjong pagar so fast.. 20mins only with my colleague keep cutting lanes haha.

There was only 1 other customer in the salon! say wad will be crowded.. made mi hurry down.. so done my brown base and copper highlights.. pretty bright! Hope it will fade quickly.. coz abit too bright when i'm actually quite fair.. haha. Two of the students attended to mi.. blow-drying and coloring my hair.. hehe quite shiok! but maybe they just wan to quickly get mi done and over with.. bleahz.

then went down Bugis for retail therapy! Total damage today abit over 100.. got some clothes and V05 hair gel.. but i dun shop often so still ok la. Almost all the shops at bugis got SALE today! it's Bugis's 1st aniversary.. that's why.

2005-09-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

it's has been a long time since i have such hope, for the future. Went for another interview earlier, and this time round it was good.

But I'm scared, after so many dashed hopes. How will it be this time? Next wk then i'll know. Wish me luck?

Wanna color my hair, so hopefully i can book an appt 4 tmr. Haha.. cheapo mi be going Kimarie training ctr, $40 for base+highlights. 1-for-1 somemore! Then Sun i will be going down to the clinic, though which one i haven't even confirm. Monday my colleagues will be surprised! since i will look.. different!

i hope everything goes well.. i dun wana think wad will happen if it doesn't.

Suddenly feel so damn tired. Guess that's due to mi sleeping after 1am every night. Need to crash. Nitez.

2005-09-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

hehe copied from Melissa's bulletin in frenster.. anyway here's my answers.

[ a n g ry - s e c t i o n ]
: do you have a quick temper?
> ya i think i do.

: what do you do when you're mad?
> show black face, blast music in my ears.

: what's the worst thing you've done when
you were mad?
> self-abuse.

: ever made anyone cry when you were
mad?
> yes i did.

: ever physically hurt someone when you
were mad?
> long time ago.

[ c r y i n g - s e c t i o n ]
: when was the last time you really cried
your heart out?
> shld be quite long ago? can't rem.

: ever cried yourself to sleep?
> so often in the past.. recently dun think so.

: ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
> haha.. i prefer my pillow.

: ever cried over the opposite sex?
> duhz.

: do you cry when you get an injury?
> when it really hurts.

: do certain songs make you cry?
> many songs makes mi sad.. but not cry la.

[ p a i n - s e c t i o n ]
: what's the hardest thing you've ever had
to go through?
> ....

: what's the worst thing you've done to
yourself?
> there's only bad things.. but i live on.

: what's the worst thing you've done to
somebody else?
> hurt someone till total despair?

: ever had a painful break up
> most break ups are painful wad..

[h a p p y s e c t i o n.]
: are you normally a happy person?
> eh.. i guess not.

: what can make you happy?
> my fav foods, and some other stuff tt i can't recall now.

: do you wish you were happier?
> yes, i really wish.

: what will make you the happiest?
> Something/Someone really so special.

: is being happy overrated?
happiness?
> hmm.. duno.

: can music make you happy?
> yup..lovely fav music of mine.

[s e l f - e s t e e m s e c t i o n.]
: do you believe in yourself?
> rarely, haha.

: when people say they think you are
pretty/cute, do u deny it?
> eh.. not really? haha!

: are you happy with who you are?
> no, i always hope to be better..

: do you wish you can be someone else?
> who? for wad? it wun be real anyway.

i can remember certain times when it's almost torturous for me.. always screaming inside to quickly run away. But somehow.. i told myself to stay and finish it. And i did. Like just now.. at least i went thru' the horrible interview, and it's me who made it horrible, not the nice interviewers. I suffered emotionally, but i learnt, and i'll try to change and not make the same mistake again. (haa say is easy always)

Now that i'm feeling better.. it's all thanks to a miracle cure- hugz from Dear. Being with him.. feeling all nice and comfortable, has a soothing effect to my emotional wound. It's not healed yet, but i've put it aside for now.

not fast not slow.. it's 1 and a half yr of good and bad times spent with u. Happy aniversary!! Lotsa hugs and kisses! I love u~

2005-09-08T13:42:00.000+08:00

Very. Restless. Very. Quiet in d office.

Why do people do the things they do? Why am i going for the interview later? Why not? I am damn undecisive.

Why do i think so damn much? Too much "why" running around in my head..

Ever since young, i never really mix around with my father's side cousins. Perhaps even then i understood that we're different. While I speak chinese, they speak english at home, and they have nice clothes, they got more toys. They are rich. While my family's not poor.. but not rich either. I dun hope to become rich, but only to have more money, so that life won't be so tiring.

sent several resumes last night.. but i forgot to update my hp number! Damn dumb.

2005-09-04T11:53:00.000+08:00

finally! met up with elsie and melissa yesterdae.. and had a good dose of laughter thru' out.. esp at Suki sushi! after tt went far east walk walk, and we took fotoz at "My playground"! But they increased their price from $5 to $10.. but nvm la their service still as great! then elsie have 2 leave soon, and i got headache.. so we left early.

Anyone haven't watch Madagascar yet? Here's the chance 2 watch at the padang Starlight cinema! On thurs 19 Sep it's even free entrance! Just have to donate any amt which will go 2 the children charity.. so anyone wanna join mi? =D

firefox lousy leh.. i prefer Avant broswer.. but damnit installed it got stupid pop-ups! HOw??? so damn tired n sian of my computer.. reformat, scan, reformat, scan.. never ending cycle. To me, search engine is the best thing ever invented, it increases ur knowledge everytime u search abt something! haha.. but with all the spyware and stuff, it seriously dampen my mood to surf the internet anymore. But is it just my pc? My office pc like no prob one leh.. why???

that's why i rarely come online anymore... work making mi so damn tired too.

2005-08-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

i was planning to freeze this blog today, but i read zy's tag. Maybe some may think i'm very boliao to freeze blog or what.. but i had my reasons. Dun worry i'm not angry or anything.. it's just like why some people deleted their archives.. and start anew. But despite my other plans, i realized i won't be able to delete my past just like that. It doesn't help that i'm always feeling insecure and doubtful, about alot of things.

Will i ever change? Despite all that i've said about becoming a better person..

2005-08-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

haha.. not last post after all. Maybe can dun count this entry? Anyway i just thought of some things i may like to have.. *hint* =D

Note: Not in order of importance.

- Howl's Moving Castle VCD
- VO5 henna treatment wax
- Sin's chocolate!
- JB shopping trip
- Batam spa trip
- snorkeling trip
- crop cardigan

More to be added.. or they might just end up on my Things-2-Buy list for Sep after i got my pay... ciao!

2005-08-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

i know i've chosen this path. But sometimes fate likes to give a helping hand, and that's it. No more going back.

It's like i've been living in a poor deplilated hut.. and one day, i lighted a match, staring at the flame.. and suddenly, some noise made me jumped, and i dropped the lighted match.. which sets fire to the hut immediately. I grabbed those few precious things and quickly run out, sparing only a backward glance before running off to dunno where..

haha story-telling huh? Anyway those who really know me.. is familiar with my sentimentality of the past. I really ain't sure if this is the right step to make.. but i've already went ahead. No promises as usual, but i wanna be a better and happier Catherine!

From the bottom of my heart.. to those who have been with me thus far.. i know i haven't been a very good fren.. often boring and spoil people's mood. But i'm really grateful that you care, i really appreciate it. Big HUGz to u all! =) and U're among the precious things(eh loved ones) i'll bring along when the hut burns down!

PS: Dear of coz i got more 2 say 2 u.. but i'll tell u in real person ;)

PPS: this will be the last entry b4 i freeze this blog.

2005-08-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

haha, i just can't kick this habit of staying up late at night and surfing around. And usually it will end off with a blog entry before i retire for the nite. There are just so many random thoughts running around in my mind.. and so often words ain't enough to describe.

For example, i was listening to my new CD(bought from d cheap CD shop at Chinatown last nite), and suddenly an image of Dear becoming a fine young man in a few yrs time came to my mind. And i smile at the thought of that, envisioning a lovely future we'll build.. but for all the daydreaming i did, I'm always realistic enough to think that there's little chance of it happening. For me, it's always better to have low hopes than to have high hopes and get disappointed. That doesn't stop me from daydreaming though hehe!

No matter how people take care of their health, a day will still come when one suffers from pains and aches due to old age or illness, and pass away sooner or later. I suppose i have a rather different opinion from most people, since that's the way life is, I didn't think abt eating more healthily and exercising more, but just live life to the fullest. It's so easy to say, but right now i don't have much idea on how to go upon that. In fact recently I've become darn lazy! Maybe it's due to work being so damn tiring, that all i wanna do at home is to NUA! haha..

I tried tagging at ur blog Elsie.. but dunno why cannot! So if u're reading this.. just wanna say that I'm glad too that ur blog's back up, which means u're feeling better i hope? Or at least u've thought things thru' and came to terms with it.. I really wish to see the happy cutie pixie u're again! When u free?? So hard to jio u out.. i know work must be tiring for u too.. so end of mth after we got our pay, must set a date for our spa session ok? Promise me~~

2005-08-18T02:12:00.000+08:00

why am i still up? tmr gonna be damn tiring den.. but nvm will be meeting Dear after work! yippee!

came upon this topic on spendin Xmas in other countries.. although it's still mths away to X'mas. Hmm.. it would be lovely to spend X'mas somewhere in Europe.. London or Paris? White X'mas with my beloved.. one day i hope...

wandering aimlessly.

2005-08-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

Total despair overwhelms me.

Life's barely bearable from now onwards.

Thank you, Dear. And Melissa, for reminding me there's still something more to life, than just hellish work.

We're all so stressed!! How?? Maybe we could just sleep our problems away..

2005-08-13T11:47:00.000+08:00

someone hate me now, great.

i gonna rant, i know i'm being petty and childish, but wth.

maybe my memory's really failing me, but i'm really damn tired of being the one 2 plan every single damn thing, from when wanna meet, to where 2 go, what 2 eat. Always the one 2 ask whether u've eaten yet. When have u ever being interested in what i did, what i buy, what i said?

u always sound so happy when u get 2 ride ur byke. Go and be with ur byke then, gimme a break. Ultimately, it's a losing battle 2 fight with ur byke for ur attention.

2005-08-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

Been troubled over some matters for the past days. Sometimes decisions are really damn hard to make. Should it be based on logic, or what is best, or follow my heart? I've known if i had taken that step, there's no turning back. Can i really live with it?

Friendster's horoscope: "Communication is the key to unlocking many things in your lives right now, so make sure you're clearheaded..." So all this while i've been muddle-headed? Wonder is it too late now.. Hope is like a matchstick, can be lighted quickly.. and snuffed out as quickly..

will be freezing this blog soon.. and hopefully i can find somewhere in springtime.. Anyway there ain't much ppl who bother to read this crap..

2005-08-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

Damn vexed.

I know running away from the prob is not the way.. but i duno wad 2 do except running away.

Sorry..

2005-08-07T16:12:00.000+08:00

Gratitude. There are so many things that you and I should be thankful for, yet we only focus on the things we're unhappy with, or the things we don't have.

Take some time each day and remind yourself of what you do have. This is great to do when you're stressed out. Even if your job makes you crazy, be thankful you have a job because alot of people don't.

I know there will be times when you don't feel grateful for anything, but try thinking about this: Someone's always going to have it better than you and someone's always going to have it worse. That's the funny thing about life. The key is being grateful that you're not the latter and to stop comparing yourself to the person who you think has it better.

- excerpt from Beautified by Kyan Douglas

ain't this meaningful? That's one phrase i always try 2 keep in mind.. there's surely someone better than u or worse off than u. So that u will keep trying n improve urself, or at least feel better that u're not the worst.

Just a few days ago.. i was still v troubled over some matters. Not tt i ain't worried now anymore.. but i've learnt 2 let nature take its course. Sometimes worry so much oso no use.. nothing good gonna come out of it except headaches.

I can't gurantee what will happen in the future, since life is so unpreditable. So i told Dear.. just cherish the times we have now.. at least we're happy and enjoyed it. After all.. people i was once v close with.. we're just strangers now. A pity, but that's life. So take things in stride lor..

Nowadays i dun meet Dear so often anymore.. like only once or twice a wk. He seems 2 be going out more often with his frenz 4 riding session, but so long he enjoys himself n have fun.. why not? I still enjoyed so much the times i can meet him.. always so happy 2 see each other and get a big hug! To me, absence makes the heart grew fonder! =p and our 1yr 5mths ani is just a few days away! although we already sorta have our ani dinner.. at billy bombers totalling almost $50! poor wallet.. but nvm la once in awhile only..

Somehow this wk passed by so quickly.. and i dun really rem what i've done. Busy.. is the word. Today.. Sunday is my only rest day at home.. although i still got lots of things 2 do later! Like clean hammie's cage(oh btw she's getting fairer!), apply mask, try out the fat-burner sample.. hee etc. I suppose being busy is good 4 mi, at least i can stop thinking abt non-positive stuff, and better than nothing 2 do!

2005-08-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

haven't update in awhile..

Must watch "Charlie & the Chocolate factory"! Really fascinating and interesting show.. was at PS carrefour earlier, saw this pretty pink 'signora' bicycle(with basket infront)! pretty big.. but there's a smaller one though i'm not sure got pink anot. Might wana get it so i can ride 2 work! haha provided i passed my cycling test(with flying colors) 1st..

feeling pretty tired.. these few days been raining. When was the last time i got 2 sleep in during a rainy day? cannot rem le.. hmm...

duno if u'll read this, maybe u're tired of hearing this, but i really wish u 2 will be happy together. I have said all i can say.. ultimately just be happy k? No matter wad choices u make. Although i'm sad 2 say i can roughly guess wad will the ending be like.. anyway it's your life, but i'll be right there when u need a fren!

2005-07-30T00:11:00.000+08:00

today i got my 1st MC(fully claimed by company) for a bad headache. hehe. It's been a long time since i last visited a doc.. and guess wad.. i got high blood pressure! Not really surprising.. i mean i nvr thought that i'm v healthy or wad.. but to hear it from a doc.. it's different.

The doc asked whether work is stressing mi out.. i replied "Life IS stressful." No wonder i have anxiety disorder(or something 2 do with nerves). I need to relax!! I NEED A BREAK~~ i really wana try snorkeling.. but dun think i'll get the chance to.. not in near future anyway.

just got a scolding from my mum, for not being caring abt wad's happening in the family, only care abt going out everyday. Guess i had it coming. I do care.. maybe just not enough. Screwed up.

2005-07-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

ok.. here's more of the Spa price list i've found! Take a look!

http://www.traveldestinee.com/spabatam.htm#Spa_Delight:

http://www.harris-batam.com/spa.shtml

and we'll be in our birthday suits there! lolz..

PS: sorry dear.. love you as much as ever! muackz!

Updated 26/7: saw this Good deal!

2D1N Harris Spa Indulge (Weekend rate - twin sharing)

A. Renew Spa (2 hour) S$135
Combination of Kinasih Treatment & Foot Reflexology

B. Revive Spa (2.5 hours) S$140
Combination of Body Scrub, Body Massage, Face Treatment & either Herbal or Milk Bath.

C. Refresh Spa (3 hours) S$145
Combination of Body Scrub, Aromatherapy massage & either Herbal or Milk bath.

Above package includes:

- 1 night stay at HARRIS BATAM - Superior Room
- 1 buffet breakfast
- FREE usage of Dino Kid’s Club (for child below 12 yrs)
- 1 x Choice of massages as mentioned above (Massage is for adults only)
- 2 way ferry ticket from SIN/WFC/SIN
- 2 way seaport tax (SIN/BTM/SIN)
- 2 way hotel transfer from PIER /HOTEL/PIER
- Welcome drink upon arrival

2005-07-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

i'm so freaking tired every evening.. came home and dozed off while waiting for dinner 2 be ready. Even skipped yesterdae aerobics. Why??

am listening 2 a song in my random playlist. Not bad. Took a look at its title.. it's Alkaline trio - Queen. Dear sent it to mi, and it's one of his fav =) see i rem!

i need lotza determination.. and perserverance.. to carry on my new routine. But from where?

duno why.. but i suddenly find it very.. lame.. 2 write wad i write here. Maybe it's just mi.. my style of writing sux.. or i duno the reason for blogging anymore.

i found my mei's blog earlier. It hit mi that she ain't a kid anymore. Her style of writing.. is somehow like mine. haha is that a good or bad thing?

my monitor is spoilt, with weird grayish colors now. When will i get enuff $ to buy a LCD screen? Maybe if i win that 5 million prize toto tmr.. lolz. FAT hope.

dun think i will blog again for awhile. Bye.

2005-07-19T09:24:00.000+08:00

thinking back.. it was really a wasted trip to HK then. Shopped so little.. and the 2 pairs of shoes i bought have to sell/give away! damn.. now i dun even have a pair of proper shoe 2 wear 2 work! no money too...

which brings mi 2 the topic of chasing ppl for $$ everyday until so sian.. ok it's not all that bad, just those I call n chase everyday still dun wana pay up.. Argh!!

got a free pair of tix 2 watch any movie.. thanks 2 my jie for helping mi redeem. So Dear and I watched "Batman begins"! Really nice show.. even better than Spiderman, maybe coz batman is the only superhero w/o supernatural powers. Though I'm not 2 sure whether 'Batman begins' or 'Sin city' is better.. both is as good.. Must watch!!

I'm trying really hard 2 motivate myself w/o anyone's help, and pushing away negative thoughts and lousy feelings.. this is only the beginning, and yet I'm already questioning myself the purpose, the reason.. for trying to do what i wana do. Maybe nobody will understand this at all.. but it's just for the better good.. for mi and those around mi whom i care abt.. =)

2005-07-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

i received a piece of shocking gd news and a wonderful gift today. Thanks Mum i'm really touched.. my most exp gift so far.. my precious! =)

went JB yesterdae again.. but this time with my frenz. Bought 1 skirt n dress.. v nice n cheap! A pity elsie din buy anything.. nvm next time we'll go other shopping malls n shops around k? but actually we did bought something together.. for a special someone.. hehe! End of this mth's a special day too! ;)

Miss another very special someone! the one who's hard at work n play! *Hugz* of coz it's u my darling Jon! *muackz!* Cya tmr~

2005-07-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

Today is a GOOD day! Haven't had one 4 pretty long.. as i said this yr is a v suay yr 4 mi. Hmm.. is it changing? But bear in mind my love life is.. mama-mia~ most of the time! hee..

went Toa payoh after work to get my Acuvue mthly disposable trial pair of contact lens! Took awhile to put it on.. but i succeeded! Yippee! Right eye is easier than left eye..

went to library too to search for personal grooming books.. and i found a really good one! and then.. i spotted Dan Brown's 'The Da Vinci Code' book beside a ger! Happy yet sad.. so rare 2 spot that book in the lib.. but it's not available. Sighz. However, after awhile.. when i walked back.. i spotted it lying on the chair! Nobody around! Woohoo~ i quickly snagged it and hurried off! wahahah...it's mine!

did i mentioned abt the previous sequel to that book, 'Angels & Demons'? Super good book! So fast-paced, exciting and thrilling thru' out! Double thumbs up! Can't wait 2 get started on this next sequel.. and it's really a thick book 0.o

on the way back.. saw this poor little black n white kitty.. duno where it's mother gone. It was meowing away.. so pitiful =( but then i lifted my head.. and saw the beautiful nightsky.. so clear! I love contact lens! let mi see the shining little stars.. and exactly half a moon..

reached home and saw the news. Regarding the NKF scandal.. have been keeping up with the forum. Although many people have make it clear that they wanted the CEO and board people to resign, and they will donate twice as much to NKF.. i didn't really expect them to quit just like that. But that's what happened. Hmm.. i dun really have much comments on this scandal. Just read what everyone says bah..

*---------------*

Long Over-Due HK trip Summary!

*Day 1*

With only a map.. after some difficulty.. we managed to find our hostel location! Well.. thought the place would be bigger.. but it's just a small apartment with abt 5 rooms in it. Our room has a super tiny bathroom, a single bed and a double decker.. and i got 2 sleep on top! Pretty cosy actually.. came back every nite around 10+pm and snuggled under the thick comforter.. hee.

so hungry by the time we unpacked.. and our fren wana try HK specialities(food).. so we walked n walked b4 we went this Cantonese restn 4 lunch.. not bad the food came fast and we had roast pigeon! there's also yummy dim sum!

and then we walked.. and walked.. thought it was possible 2 walk from Mongkok to TST.. but it's impossible. Our feet ached like hell.. and we ended up taking MTR one stop to TST. Went their world trade ctr, Avenue of Stars(to see handprints of famous ppl on the pavement) and watched the Symphony of Lights. Nothing impressive, i almost dozed off!(but coz i really tired..) After that took a bus back.. and along the way i got pretty sick(nauseous) coz of that stupid Mango-Coconut milkshake! so i went back myself.. while my jie n her fren continued 2 walk the night markets.
(luckily i got better, after trying 2 vomit nothing, went online use msn 2 complain 2 my dear frenz n my darling!)

*Day 2*

Tried 2 wake up early.. and took MTR down to HK island, Wan Chai for HK style breakfast(brunch). Beside their yummy fluffy egg tart, there's nothing much gd 2 say abt that eatery. Then took bus down to Causeway Bay, window-shopped at their departmental stores, and tried their electrical tram! *Rattle rattle* Then had a hard time finding the way to The Peak tram.. but we managed! V steep slope up in the tram! and then while trying 2 take pics with the nice scenery from so high up.. my camera hanged. SD card corrupted. Totally spoilt my mood. But then we went into the Wax museum and my mood improved, coz it's fun taking pics with those wax people.. esp Andy lau!! =D Took somemore pics of the scenery b4 we leave.. and the tram ride down is backwards! scary..

Back 2 Kowloon, had dinner at this restn(like food ctr those kind) and tried the Pissing prawns! they look.. er.. yucks. So i only peel off the hard blue-purplish shells 4 my jie 2 eat. i managed 2 rush back 2 the street with lotsa pet shops b4 they close, and bought a silent wheel and hideout 4 my hammie! cheap! that's it for Day 2..

*Day 3*

Finally woke up early, and went to visit Wong Tai Sin Temple. 2 days of sun, last day rain. Had brunch at the shopping mall beside the temple, and bought some stuff from their Watsons. Rushed back to Mongkok by MTR, and we went our separate ways in THE shopping mall, Argyle ctr! Something like our Far east plaza, but as expected, their style of clothes not my kind. Only got some accessories, 2 pair of shoes and a few tees for my Dear.. and something traumatizing.. i got scolded by this auntie(booth owner)! well maybe it's my fault.. but i duno she was standing behind mi and she screamed into her microphone. Almost had a heart attack. So damn paiseh after that.

only a few hrs 2 shop there.. then i had 2 rush back 2 our hostel 2 get ready 2 depart. and it was raining heavily. Me, alone, no umbrella. Ok la, i'm used 2 getting drenched. What's more worse, is that we have 2 lugged a 11.5kg bag full of stuff all the way 2 the bustop! and i went the wrong direction.. and it was still raining. How pathetic.

45min bus ride 2 the airport.. shopped abit at the Airport.. and it's plane flight home! I miss Sg! haha.. I shall conclude.. I will NOT be going back HK in the near future. Home sweet home!

All fotoz in my Dotphoto album! Go see!

*-----------------*

wah.. longest blog entry ever huh. Ok just 1 more last thing 2 mention. Back from HK, i've got a plan in mind. DIY mini xtreme makeover. haha.. ok nothing xtreme.. but there will be significant changes.. and a new life and past buried.

I can't really foresee how it will go.. can only daydream.. but i will TRY!

will list out the steps next time.. The End of this longest entry!

2005-07-12T14:31:00.000+08:00

abit giddy, my face feels hot, even in this freezing office.

upon realizing wad a farking FOOL i am.

how can i continue to behave normally? i dun think i can.. but somehow i do.

would just like to curl into a ball and hide away.. but some part of mi wun allow that. That part thinks staying busy is the solution. Really?

Ignorance is indeed bliss. but the temptation to know.. is even greater.

PS: pls DUN ask mi wad happened.

2005-07-11T10:07:00.000+08:00

I am disappointed with the way some people suddenly contact mi just for help.. and not even a word of goodbye after that. Is this called true frenship? Nope I dun think so.. I dun like it but I still helped.. I really too soft-hearted..

but I will heed Elsie's advice.. make myself happier by putting that aside. Keep the memories.. but dun hold onto them anymore.. Thanks elsie.. really good advice from u this time! Hee..

PS: HK fotoz finally uploaded! under my album.. go check it out!

2005-07-10T19:43:00.000+08:00

ahh... so damn lazy 2 upload the fotoz! coz still need 2 re-size.. so eh another day? hee..

sucha boring Sunday..

oh.. yesterdae finally met up with my Dear~ Missed him so much.. 1st time nvr see him for so long.. 5days ah! Gave him a big hug upon see-ing him at the bustop =D slacked at his place after work.. glad he like the tee-shirts i got for him from HK! then went for dinner wih his parents at PS.. tried the new restn Manhattan Fish Market.. yummy!! v nice n worth it.. coz the platter for 2 is enuff for 4! Highly recommended!

2005-07-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

I'm back! and i miss my home..Singapore! haha. i guess i really not used 2 other countries.. always homesick.

anyway still pretty tired.. so fotoz 2 be uploaded later.. maybe Sun? Sadly 2nd day's fotoz all gone, coz SD card corrupted.. damn sianz tt day took alot of pics leh..

Happy 1yr 4mth Ani Dear~~~ miss u so terribly much...

2005-07-04T19:38:00.000+08:00

i like month's end/start, coz there's more work 2 do.. haha. Today was so busy that time just flew by.. and it's time 2 knock off!

Not 2 sure how 2 pack my luggage..wad clothes 2 bring? haha.. most prob i end up looking out of place there..

er.. duno wad 2 write le. haha shld go nua awhile, have my dinner, bath n sleep!! Must wake up 3+am leh.. and usually i'm too excited to sleep.. haha how?

think i haha too much le.. going kuku le..bye~

PS: Dear check ur mailbox when i'm gone! =p

2005-07-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

went JB after work yesterdae! 1st time took MRT to Bukit batok that side.. then alighted at Kranji and took bus in. Luckily my bf's mum came with us.. if not we'll be so lost!

Overall interesting experience.. right after the checkpoint there's ppl asking us 'wana take cab?' and it's their own car.. not a real taxi. My bf's mum bargained a price with the guy.. and off we went in a super.. lok kok car.

nice view of the sea along the way!

in the car(w/o safety belts)

lunch at MarryBrown! see their seats got swings!

Dear at this fav shop!

mi in the toilet..kaka

supper b4 leaving.. durian!

left around 10pm.. and we hired another cabbie drive us all the way back to Dear's place, for S$43! wah exp.. but we reached b4 11pm.. so ok la. I only bought 1 new handbag and St ives firming masque at Watsons(cheap!), and Dear bought a pair of shoes and a big sling bag! haha..

ok time to log off.. still need 2 pack my luggage! leaving in the wee hrs tmr.. take care n cya when i'm back!

2005-06-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

got my paycheck and confirmation letter today, with increment of 50 bucks. Felt pretty happy.. even thought of a speech 2 say here.. but maybe another day.

I feel like going to the beach, and stare into the deep blue far horizon...

and Sorry Elsie.. i feel bad that now u're really sick.. like i'm a jinx or something. Ok,ok i will cheer up and get u lotza goodies from HK ok? and continue 2 eat until bai bai pang pang! =p

won't be going for the Graduation ceremony. Coz my jie's also falls on the same day.. so my parents attending hers only, no time 2 rush down for mine. Will just ask my jie 2 go down TP help mi collect the Cert 1 day..

some people just nvr change.. disappointed. But wth it's none of my concern anymore. See no point in mulling over it. Screw it!! lolz..

YES! 5 more days.. to HK!! and maybe going JB on Sun!! hehe.. can't wait!

2005-06-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

just realized something. I have not register online for the graduation ceremony.. which closed on 20/6. So i can't attend le. Damn sianz.. even feeling disappointed, and not only me. Damnit.

last wk on my way back from aerobics.. i saw a dead cat bleeding away on the road. Apparently it was knocked down by some vehicle.. and all i did was only to walk pass it after a glance. But was there anything i could have done? Call the police? haa. Poor cat.. pls dun think i'm heartless.. i do feel sad for it. it's just there's nothing much i really could have done..

no appetite.. but there's dinner waiting for mi. Sighz.

here's a damn crappy sentence by my smart-ass bf.
"draken413o - Can I Float? Ker Yi Wor Piao Yi? says:
as wild as a polar bear on panadol, drinking 7-up vodka and ice lemon tea while rollerblading on a freeway at 12 pm while eating extra spicy bee hoon?"

only my incredible boi can think of such.. things. lolz!

2005-06-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

haha i worked 1 nite n quit! actually the pay's not bad.. 7hrs with tips = $52! But my poor legs.. ache like hell from standing the whole nite! well.. can just say no more f&b jobs for mi in the near future.

might try kumon again for the p/t asst job. at least it's work sitting down and a few hrs only.

and recently i have the idea to go remove my mole.. should i? coz it's a bad one.. symbolizing lonely life (eg jinx husband), pretty true so far even.. Gimme some opinions! and here's a preview of how it would be:

so how?

1 more wk to Hongkong! =D

You Are a Sensitive Kisser

For you, kissing is a way to connect
And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy
It may take you a while to kiss someone...
But when you do, it's total fireworks
What's Your Kissing Style?

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful
But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself
You're the perfect blend of independent and caring
You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!
Are You a Good Girlfriend?

2005-06-25T15:19:00.000+08:00

this wk been busy busy!! so many things... and i'm damn tired. Gimme a place 2 rest my eyes and i'll KO in seconds flat! haha...

Photos updates!!

3 June babys in my family.. so Thurs we celebrated by eating out at Esplanade's ThaiExpress! It's a rare outing for us..

i like this pic coz my Dad's smiling..

then we walked around Esplanade.. then towards the Merlion.. took fotoz but mostly blurred by the water spray. Took the underpass(the travellator!) to Fullerton hotel.. took some fotoz inside again.. haha machiam we are tourists. Then took the bus from the bustop outside fullerton home...

Fun on the travellator! hehe

Met Dear on Mon.. and we went J8 and had dinner at Cafe Cartel.. where we took alot of stupid fotoz after we finished our food! haha.. some are too.. hilarious to post here. Maybe some other time. Ok here's the nice pictures.

outside bishan mrt

inside cafe cartel.. digi cam special effect!

last couple shot b4 we go..

Now updates on my hammie! hehe still haven't really decide a name for her yet. Past few nights been waking mi up like 5,6am coz of the wheel! Have to get up and oil the wheel.. sianz.

the culprit..

time for my long-awaited nap.. before i go for my 1st day of work at M.U cafe bar! Well.. hopefully things go well so i'll have an xtra source of income.. if not.. sianz.

*Introducing.. my very own... "Sly"!!

see.. there.. the red shirt, dark specs guy in the backgrnd! lolz!

PS: rest of the fotoz in my albums.. so go there take a look!

2005-06-21T09:24:00.000+08:00

when there's a will, there's a way.

I wana start anew. Do what I preach.

can't wait for awful June to end, can't wait for Jul to start brand new.

Pondering this over my cuppa coffee.

so many birthdays this mth, and my big 2-OLD is just in 3mths time, on a Saturday. Since I can still pass off as a 14yr old kid, no worries. Hee. xcept the min $500 bank balance before I hit.. 21. uh-oh.

2005-06-19T15:57:00.000+08:00

i can't seem 2 stop sighing. coz my heart feels so heavy... i dread the times when i'm not with u, when my mind wun stop thinking/worrying...

collected the hammie last nite.. a female pudding hamster. It's not really a baby, abt 4-6mths old, haven't thought of a name for her yet. How abt stussy? haha.. although i not 2 sure how 2 pronounce it.

I'm getting fond of her.. but i'm worried. The wood shavings seem 2 be ain't gd 4 her, she hasn't drink any water yet(water lvl remained the same), and she just.. dun look good? =( Hopefully when i settle her in her new cage(gonna collect later at tampines) later.. she will be better? will upload fotoz later.

and my mum's not happy with the hammie. That's part of the reason i'm so sianz... another reason is.. a few ppl i know seem 2 be high on their career accomplishments, earning lotza big bucks. They are the 'rich gets richer' i know. And i'm the 'poor gets poorer'. Money-wise, i'm really in the red -ve zone. Trying to find part-time evening job.. but no luck yet. Dun really wana work in a smoky pub as waitress.. but i'm not so lucky as the rich so wad 2 do?

Anyone keep hamster wana buy wood shavings from mi? i need 2 sell away urgently.. 35 liter at $4 only. Pls help mi ask around~ thks.

2005-06-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

here comes new hopes.. yet all dashed in the end.

it just made my heart grew heavier with each disappointment..

wad a fucked up world we're living in.

and June is a damn lousy month for mi, where gloomy days looms ahead..

2005-06-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

Haven't updated in awhile. Actually got alot of stuff on my mind.. but it's all disorganized thoughts swirling in my little busy mind.

Ok, shall start with the 1st aerobics lesson yesterdae. Reached there early but stopped at the wrong bustop, had to walk 1 big round to the other side to get in, and the lesson had started by the time i stepped into the dance studio. Worked out all the way during that 1hr.. abit confusing trying to catch up though. But i guess this aerobics lessons is good for my body and hopefully by the end of it(by Sep) i will be in a better shape! hehee..

I'm still waiting... for replies. Regarding the hamster cage i gonna get, the hammie i gonna adopt, the emails i sent offering freelance services for web-design & photography... still waiting... and almost getting used to it. I gonna spend lotza $$.. hence i need to earn lotza $$ too!! But... nvm not gonna start on contradicting opposing views of... nvm. If not i will just end up sighing and sighz...

ok, need to go. Need to sleep. That's it for now. Ciao.

2005-06-12T13:10:00.000+08:00

Time is ticking by... and i'm still stuck here infront of my pc, waiting for the pm reply. Somehow i got a feeling it's not coming.. which just adds to my disappointments.

I'm not excited over the Hk trip anymore, not looking forward to Tue 1st aerobics lesson, dun feel like going down FIR concert later, dun wana go work tmr, dun wana do anything.

Duno wad i wan anymore. Just sitting here stoning.. miserable, not really. Is there anything tt can make mi happy?

2005-06-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

big boss treated us dinner 2dae! At kallang stadium there this chi restn "The Oasis". Food came v fast.. n i guess it's quite nice but i wouldn't know coz half of the dishes i dun eat. haha..

going to adopt a hammie soon! Hopefully everything go smoothly.. will buy a new mini cage for my mini hammie! hehe.. dun ask mi why i wana get one again. I only know i'm ready to dote on another one again.. and i really just want a hamster. (maybe since i can't get a cat or dog..)

booked my air tix!! so excited!! haha.. must start planning like wad 2 bring there le. So anyone else wan mi 2 get for them anything? Quick ask away~ but pls bear in mind i have a pretty tight budget.. hee.. so nothing 2 exp k? =)

just 2 note some down here:

1) Dear - tee shirt, dark brown pants, punky bracelets, shoes
2) Elsie - nice plain halter tops
3) Mel - vintage accessories, tee shirt(black,blue,white)
4) Kor - vodka(DFS)
5) Me - Mahjong tiles, lao po bing, wallet, handbag, shoes...........

and lastly, check out some new pics at my dotphoto album! under "great time with frenz"

on the bus yesterdae..

2005-06-09T11:24:00.000+08:00

I fear for the worst. A repeat of history.

Maybe i won't be so lucky this time..

but no matter wad, i will always love u so darn much Jon.. Happy 1yr 5mths Aniversary..

PS: who's still reading my blog?(since i change my blog link) Drop me a tag ya? Thks.

2005-06-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

2005-06-05T14:10:00.000+08:00

well, upon all the research. I ended up buying a camera that i didn't know existed b4 tt damn salesguy told mi abt it. Dun wish 2 repeat wad happened, but anyway i bought the Sanyo Xacti J4 digi camera for $600!(though he quoted mi $635 at 1st) a 4MP camera, which we were lead to believed it was 8MP, due to real-time interpolation. It's not all tt bad i guess.. this unknown brand camera is quite cool(interesting functions) in its own special ways.

That aside, i had the most enjoyable time in town with Dear yesterdae. Spent almost 2hrs at Sim lim, then we went down Orchard to have Suki sushi buffet! Yummy..

and after tt, we decided to catch a movie. 'Hitchhiker's guide to the Galaxy" it's an interesting & funny show.. and makes one appreciate the Earth n nature more. Really, at least I am.

"Don’t Panic": Things can’t always remain the same

Before the show we went over to Heeren, coz there's the Fasio sunshine gal search. hehe, bought a mascara(finally) and had the express makeover, which is actually put makeup only, everything xcept foundation. huh? weird.. anyway then they took a foto of mi.. but i look horrible in it. Took a polariod with Dear there too.. for $2.

then went Heeren walk walk..

Dear and bling bling Mickey Mouse!

before going home.. at the bustop.

and as usual, after a wonderful time.. bad things happened. Realized kana cheated for the camera, pc after reformated still has probs, muz reformat again! ARghhh.......... hope things dun get any more worse... besides i have to scrimp and save from now till Aug...

2005-06-03T00:42:00.000+08:00

Updates! =)

1) Finally.. my lovely UOB mini debit card has arrived! hehe.. now deciding btwn wad color for the acrylic case.. clear, black, blue or pink? [3/6: UOB TX debit/ATM card's here too! Both look so chio.. dark blue with nice designs~]

2) I will be going to HongKong on 5,6,7 Jul! Although haven't book the tix.. it's more or less confirm!

3) this wkend's PC fair.. i have set my eyes.. on Olympus's AZ-2! haha.. i know i v fickle-minded.. but due to low budget(need 2 save 4 hk trip) therefore decided on this cool little compact! $400+ with 4MP and LOTs of cool features! Can't wait to lay my hands on it.. [3/6: this time not my fault.. tt lovely digi cam had discontinued! so disappointing.. so switch back to Nikon Coolpix S1. Going down SLS tmr to find.. since the PC show at expo sux.. dun go!]

Besides all that.. this wk.. how 2 say leh? I've been thinking alot.. having some sort of internal/mental/emotional war. About? hmm.. cannot say. But after all that thinking.. i have came to a conclusion.

Stop thinking so much n grow up.

But am i able to do that, really? I'm feeling damn tired.. body, spirit, mind. Met my Dear after work 2dae.. and had a few hrs of happiness where all -ve stuff were blocked out. Till i got back home. How long can i carry this on.. i'm crashing...

2005-05-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

life is tough. for many of us.

i can't say whether i'm in a bad, worse, or damn jialat situation. Since there's always people out there worse off or better than u.

My words ain't trustworthy. I know. But i have dreams.. that i really want to achieve in the future. and somehow i will make it come true.

Even when old painful memories flash back.. although i can't stop myself from dwelling on it.. i will be strong. I have to. Happy or not doesn't really matter, coz in life there's so many diff kinds of emotions.. and that's life.

2005-05-29T02:51:00.000+08:00

tired.... i need 2 sleep.... soon... but y am i still online... still muz wake up early tmr..

hungry!! but so late aredi duno shld i cook instant noodles anot. Had a fun time earlier.. met up with my frenz since Jeremy is going NS this coming Fri. Went simpang bedok ate prata(2 only tt's y i so hungry now!!) then went over Elsie's fren's place at Simei play tai-di! haha.. so long nvr play aredi.. luck was so-so. Got win got lose.. had a few vodka shots since i lost.. and finally i learnt how 2 gulp it all down instead of sip! Wad an idiot i was last time.. hurhur. Then before midnite mi n Melissa shared a cab back home..

and poor darling injured his knee badly.. hope u feel better tmr! and i'm coming soon.. 2 be ur p/t personal nurse! hehe.. muackz! Time for bed...

2005-05-27T10:46:00.000+08:00

I'm a very indecisive person. For example, when I dunno I shld buy the pink or blue one, I can stand there comparing n thinking for a long time.. And I may just leave w/o buying in the end. Haha.. That's mi. And I'm a very stubborn person too, objections dun really work on mi, if I have made up my mind on something.

Anyway.. Now I duno whether I wana quit anot. Already disappointed my parents when my NTU application failed.. If they know I quit.. =(

and I'm pretty excited at the thought of going HK in Jul! 1st overseas trip.. although nothing is confirm yet.. I still v excited! =D

2005-05-26T13:09:00.000+08:00

finally woke up from my dream of ever getting into NTU with my lousy grades.

gonna quit my current job too, dun think I can stay there for long anyway, boring jobscope. Wana look for better opportunity.. In the meanwhile I'll juz do p/t stuff like give tuition maybe?

just bumming arnd in this world.. Duno wad 2 do anymore.. Can someone pls enlighten mi?

2005-05-22T00:05:00.000+08:00

hmm.. where shld i start from?

my 1st casting experience! actually nothing much.. went all the way down to AMK yesterdae after work and got some photos taken. That's all.. dun think i will get selected.

2dae is a very bad day! Was going to tampines.. and i realized i forgot 2 bring my wallet when i reached the bustop! Plus my hp low batt, black clouds loomed overhead, thunders boomed... wah! So called my jie to ask her for help... while i waited at the bustop for more than 1/2hr.. even dozed off awhile. Then my Dearz came to find mi too! hehe..

Registered the aerobics funky hi/lo lessons earlier, wanted to go Tampines SRC to pay, but when i reached there at 3+pm it's closed coz 1/2 dae! sianz.. so quickly went down to UOB bank, and finally opened an a/c(TX) which comes with a ATM cum debit card, and applied for UOB mini debit card too! Yeah.. all coming in 2wks time.

Then it's shopping at CS and TM! bought a blue denim skirt with pink lace trims, black spaghetti from giordano, and panasonic earphones with winding case! Total shopping damage $55... Then i tried the Olympus Mini Digital camera which i like alot.. but its shutter speed is slow.. so the person recommend mi Casio exilim.. Z50 which is Melissa's digi cam! Dearz love tt digi cam.. coz shutter speed v fast and many functions/effects/scene modes! But i still prefer the Olympus mini digi design.. somemore weatherproof. So i gotta decide btwn this 2! How!?! Click here to see the digi cams!

After tt went Dearz place.. but left after awhile due to some.. matters.
Conclusion: i hate super-ego-think-i'm-so-great guys!

PS: u know those 2 gers who won the Initial D movie contest thingy and flying off to see Jay chou? 1 is my coursemate, 1 is my sec sch classmate. world is v small..

2005-05-20T08:54:00.000+08:00

just reached the office at 8:51am.
freaking tired.
I need my coffee dose. Brought along a can of nescafe mocha, still cold from my fridge.
sluuurp.
8hrs more to dreamland in my lovely comfy bed.
Till then.

Oh ya, sorry dear really too tired to go down your show, just do ur best, have fun n take care! Muackz*

2005-05-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

yummy food, great frenz, wonderful time! =)

it's been more than 1mth since i last saw them.. really miss them! went to Bedok 85 for the usual gd food which includes stingray, bak chor mee, bbq chicken wings, ah-balling! Last nite it was really crowded.. and by the time we finished eating we were all sweating! After that we just hanged out at the void deck, chit-chat and play with Melissa's wonderful Casio exilim digi cam. So fotoz to be uploaded later!

by the time we were waiting for a cab to go home.. the unthinkable happened. It started raining heavily! We were caught in the thunderstorm with only 1 small umbrella(saviour of the day: Melissa!) and standing beside the road and there's no cab! Until we decided to cross the road when we spotted an empty cab, so we rushed in! haha.. all drenched.. unforgettable experience man.

you know how excited i can get when i spotted a wonderful job ad(with high pay)? Although i don't fit the requirement, i immediately sent an email pleading the person-in-charge to gimme a chance! But i'm trying not to get my hopes too high.. coz the disappointment may be high too. Can only keep my fingers crossed...

Received a surprise email yesterdae.. from 1 of the talent agency i emailed like.. wks ago?! Now then they replied mi.. and said will be contacting mi soon for an interview. Another one trying to get my hopes high.. keep my fingers double-crossed! Btw the talent agency interview i went last time.. no news from them at all. =/

and i will be starting work at this cafe as p/t waitress.. 2/3 days per wk, probation for 2wks. Wkly cash! that's the attractive part.. if not maybe i wun want 2 work there too...
Update: Not gonna work there anymore.

2005-05-11T19:05:00.000+08:00

i need rest!! was practically sleep-walking to work 2dae! so here i am.. finally back home.. but online! Not good... ok then, i will sleep b4 1am 2dae!

1 bad news and 1 gd news.

Bad: my NTU letter still haven't come yet...
Gd: my Dresense stuff came 2dae! Like the shiny silver tri-stars anklet! And the black enamel heart earring.. though it's abit bigger than i thought.. it's alright.

These few days.. alot of ups and downs. But don't wana talk abt it le, since in the end everything's alright. Well.. almost bah, this time i really really want to change.. be more positive! Yes, action speaks louder than words. But slowly k, this kind of change is never easy...

2005-05-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

terrible moodswings. tsk tsk.

anyway in the end i did revamped my blog, and it's almost done. Spent almost 5hrs+ on it.. tired. Shit.. dun even wana think abt work tmr. But at least there's something to look forward after work tmr.. celebrating our aniversary at town.

Happy 1yr 2mths Ani Dear~!

Hopefully it will turn out well.. no more last min changes for mi! Ciao...

2005-05-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

revamp postponed. In a damn lousy mood now, simply don't feel like doing anything.

i hate my hair.
i hate working.
i hate those ppl with perfect life.

Leave mi alone.

2005-05-06T11:20:00.000+08:00

i'm a happy little ger today. =)

Simple reasons:
- it's fridae! wkends! \^.^/
- i got a cute lil' sheep on my desktop

like it too? Get it here! Lots more here.
- can see my Dear later! (jumps arnd like my sheep)
- shopping & gd food with my poly frenz tmr! *drools*

all this makes mi smile! =) so rewarding after a sian wk of work...

fotoz and a new look(for my blog) coming rite up next wk!

2005-05-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

i would like to be myself. But that means i ain't a saint.

Ya, many things i've said i don't care about other people's opinions. But i can never achieve that 100%. Deep down inside, i do mind when someone say something about of me is not as good as i've thought.

So, do you notice any change? yup, many rooms for improvement.

i need to design a new blogskin. Everyone's got one.

and i'm currently having a tough battle with the green-eyed monster, e-n-v-y. It's biting mi! >.<

Darling, i love u to bits! Thanks for everything...

2005-05-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

after work yesterdae was feeling unwell.. dragged myself back under the hot sun, felt feverish with aching bones. =( But i wana attend the wedding! and panadol xtra save the day! thanks 2 dear for crushing it into powder for mi..

by the time we took cab down.. was already late. Nearly had an accident too! The taxi almost hit a cyclist, and braked so hard tt i jerked forward. Just got shocked.. no injuries. Anyway when we reached M hotel, we still have to wait for some time b4 we went into the banquet area. So it's fotoz time!

mi & my jie b4 we went out

full length pic outside Dear hse

at Dear's place

kissy~

cute cheeky boi outside

mi!

blur pic of bride n groom

Dear & mi lounging outside banquet area

mi & Dear's mum

at the wedding dinner

waiting 2 go home..

drunk Dear with balloons!

the party last until 1+am! Dear couldn't stand the loud music, plus it's mostly retro, so we juz hanged at the lounging area until it was time 2 go home. The hotel actually had a complimentary gift for all the guests, a cute metal keychain of a boi n ger. But i forgot 2 take!!! Such a pity.. =(

2005-04-29T16:23:00.000+08:00

was feeling super sianz in the day.. coz of PMS? then after lunch i finally got my paycheck! hehe.. so my mood got better.. hopefully i will be able to use the $$ tmr afternoon! lotza things need 2 buy ah...

super-slacking now! office so quiet.. duno where are the rest.. so i might as well slack! Rare opportunity wor.. hee.. once a mth only.. or maybe juz this time.

starting 2 get excited over tmr.. 1st time attending a wedding! although it's juz the dinner part.. coz i have 2 work in the dae so can't attend the church session =( but if i not wrong i will get 2 dance with Dear at the dinner! wah.. *dreamy* =) already planned what 2 wear and what hairstyle tmr.. haha! juz 1 tiny prob.. wad gift 2 bring? =x

then it's shopping at Orchard on Mon!! Yippeee.. then next wkend got a date with my poly frenz and Dear! Wonderful.. i so love wkends! =D

2005-04-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

sianz. tot 2dae gonna get my pay.. instead it's tmr(i think.. better be!!) Was pretty bad mood on the way back, but after eating a whole choco pancake.. felt much better! haha.. i'm becoming a glutton! =p

movie marathon last nite! watched 1 horror show and 1 violent show called "Sin city" at Dear's place.. both shows wun be showing in sg i think. The 1st horror show was abt this family who moved into a big mansion where a whole family was murdered last time.. forgot the title liao. The other show "Sin city" is a movie where it's mostly black and white, with only a few parts in color. There's 3 short stories.. all happening in Sin City where there's 3 powerful gd guys. Storyline in the form of narration by those guys.. pretty interesting, would recommend u guys to watch it if u can get the vcd hee.

i'm so looking forward 2 this wkend!! Plus the public holiday! yeah... fun, fun and more fun! =D Hopefully there will be fotoz 2 upload for the next entry. Till den! Ciao!

PS: new song! Backstreet boy - Incomplete. Nice!

2005-04-25T20:18:00.000+08:00

i'm damn sianz/sad/down/tired.

this wk is... will happen some stuff.. tt may be life-changing. If there is gd news.. i will announce here.. but if it's bad news.. well, life goes on i guess. will juz remain as the simple ger leading an ordinary life...

2005-04-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

ah!! this is the shortest i've ever cut my hair!! indeed i got my new jappy look.. but... maybe i need some time 2 get use 2 it. Regret cutting!! when will it grow long again.. 1yr only grow 2 inches the most.. den i must wait 4yrs??!! faints.......

wasted trips. 2dae i walked so much.. surprisingly my legs ain't aching yet. Saw someone i dun wana see at PS earlier.. she didn't see mi, but anyway i walked away.

aiyah.. i'm still upset over my hair la!~ even my mei sae i look like boi.. sianz.. gonna buy Garnier's hair dye to DIY, violet brown color! hope it will turn out nice.. if not i can wear a cap out from now onwards. -.- But with this new look.. hope there will be new changes in my life(not luv life, tt part i'm content).. but may have lose the chance of becoming a talent liao.. haiz.

2005-04-23T01:15:00.000+08:00

let the fotoz do the talking! or rather, see the love in the air.. =p

\lovely time after work 2dae/

\^.^/

\at PS carrefour/

\1st foto taken with Dear's new hp/

and i will say this one more time. I will not ever forget u.. coz u're too special 2 mi, and too impt part of my life. Although i dun often show it, i do appreciate all the things u do for mi... and i am thankful and grateful of having u as my beloved.

I love the things u do.. I love the things u say.. I love the way you're a part of my life everyday.. I love the way u're like a star from afar, but real and in my life...

I love you.

2005-04-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

"Beautiful illusions" is a v nice show! i'm watching it everydae, and Fann wong is really beautiful.. but everytime watch thomas ong feel so sad for him.. so poor thing.

again, so fast tmr's friday. and it's 1 more wk to payday! Yeah~ But i getting so sianz at work.. esp when there's nothing much for mi 2 do. How long does one take to sort and file invoices? I had to slowly do one by one in order to drag time.. if not i finish so fast sit there(freezing) do nothing.

but i got a surprise dedication 2dae! From my sweet darling.. called mi at 5+pm 2 dedicate a song 2 mi.. thank u dear, i looooove u! *muaCkz! and then i treated myself to a choco wafer(pancake) after work! yummy~

oh.. the letter haven't come yet. Reading abt people getting the acceptance letters and going for interviews.. i'm losing hope every single dae. Guess i'll juz receive a thin letter saying "Sorry, u have been rejected... " Last time i so wanted 2 work.. now tt i working i wish 2 study...

here's a lovely poem i found.

Memories light the corners of my mind.
Misty water color mem'ries of the way we were.
Scattered pictures of the smiles we left behind.
Smiles we gave to one another for the way we were.

Can it be that it was all so simple then,
Or has time rewritten every line?
If we had the chance to do it all again,
tell me, Would we? Could we?

Memories may be beautiful, and yet,
What's too painful to remember
We simply choose to forget.

So it's the laughter we will remember,
When ever we remember the way we were,
The way we were.

2005-04-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

i think i may go blind soon. Poor eyes got strained everyday.. from monitor screen to tv to camera flash. Arghhhh.

and my tooths. Always so panicky abt them. Just kicked a fuss over eating a slice of apple after i had brushed my teeth for the nite. Hmm... but damn lazy 2 brush again.. and i need to go for dental checkup!! anywhere cheap?

i dunno.. nothing much seems to be going well these few days.. maybe more hrs of sleep might help. Off i go then.. ciao.

2005-04-18T13:12:00.000+08:00

butterflies in my tummy! excited.. ezen agency replied my email! duno how it will go..

on the other hand.. something is wrong.. and i'm worried...

2005-04-17T04:06:00.000+08:00

i miss this. surfing net in the middle of the nite.. being able to sleep late and wake up late the next dae.

and i have a secret wish. Like all e other naive gers, ... i want to be a *star! hah. idiot me. but i've taken the 1st step.. silly mi! Anyway juz try for fun lor.. i dun expect anything. Juz a tiny little hope...

there's anxiety in mi. The letter from NTU shld be coming.. it's already mid-Apr. Be it acceptance or rejection, pls just come quickly. Guess i'm on the waiting list. With GPA only 2.35, i know i most prob rejected. Nvm, juz at least let mi know asap...

2005-04-15T19:35:00.000+08:00

Congrats to mi~!! I have successfully completed 3yrs course of Diploma in Biz IT! haha.. just saw the letter. Thinking back... no, no more thinking back. Must look ahead from now onwards~

After 2wks of working.. i've finally gotten more used to it le. Now there's more work for mi to do, feel more at ease talking to colleagues, and i can still reach there slightly b4 9am and leave at 6pm sharp! haha.. and the toilet is not that jialat after all la.

Looking forward to end of this mth! Coz i'll be attending a wedding dinner, eat gd food, and get my pay! =D Can't wait.. and time seems to pass faster nowadays. It's Friday already! but then no going out.. and tmr still got half dae work. Nvm it's ok.. it's all to a better future! Be positive! =)

Finally went to book the BTT.. but all the avail testdates this mth is full.. and the govt is really cheating our $$!! Must pay $5+ to open a a/c which expire in 1/2yr! Then must renew again. Argh!! everything $ go up, xcept our pay remain so low!! how to survive.. somemore youngsters nowadays dun scrimp and save like our elders. Die.. how to be positive like tt?! haha..

and yesterdae we were suppose to catch a movie.. but in the end we went down to novena sq to meet his mum for dinner. A pity i didn't take some photos of the place.. it was really a nice restaurant cum bar called Bullfrog(logo is a frog with horns and a tail). The best part is we sat at the open air alfresco and there's a v nice chilly breeze blowing at us! so shiok! haha.. and after tt we got their discount card worth 50% off on food! Cool! Definitely going back there soon..

2005-04-13T16:06:00.000+08:00

4:10pm!! haha 2 more hrs to go... so bored!!!

will be going down CDC to book my BTT again. Hopefully i can get the 16th may test date. But actually i not 2 sure learn driving for wad.. wun be getting a car anyway. =/

2005-04-13T11:13:00.000+08:00

I suspect.. Someone stole my cookies in my office drawer! Humphz..

and there's a farewell lunch for my colleague who's leaving.. so I'll get to eat free kfc later! =p

2005-04-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

i wana highlight n cut my hair!! once i get my pay.. which is end of the mth! 18 days more to go! Can't decide on where to go.. plus i have LOW budget! hmm.. maybe back to Salon i again.. if ivy is still there!

here are some hairstyles fotoz i have found tt i like.. hopefully my hair will be longer by then!

front view + side view

i like this fringe!

Dear came over my workplace to find mi todae! =) went Jackson there ate Stingray! Then we walked all the way back to my home.. and it rained. So we went to the top of a hdb blk and just stayed there chit-chat till the rain stop, while enjoying the cool breeze of the rain yet out of it.

4eva love.. (the song by wang lee hom got stuck in my head)

PS: changed my fotoz slideshow.. now better?

2005-04-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

And now i'm feeling down again..

Reason 1: read XX's latest blog entry, where 1 of her fren passed away due to bike accident. Death always remind mi of my sec classmate.. who was really of those good ppl gone 2 early due 2 cancer. Well, for some guys bike is their damn passion.. they know all the risks beforehand anyway.. and since it happened already, i suppose he will be missed by many.. and at least he died doing wad he loved most.

Will i ban Dear from learning bike coz of this? i dunno.. it's just like 1 can always say tt u walk on the rd oso may kana bang 1 dae. Anyway that's all up to him and he ain't got time. I know i can't stop myself from mentioning it once in awhile.. but it's really up to him so dun bother abt wad i say.

Reason 2: i juz dun feel too gd when others is much better than mi. Anyway i know i'm lousy and i nvr work hard so there's nothing to blame or whatsoever. Stuff it.

2005-04-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

Take a look at this!!

Aigo's her and his watch.. that can play mp3, record voice and even store data files too!! It is also shock-proof and anti-static! How cool is tt??! Oh.. comes with rechargeable battery! FYI, i never have any interest in watches at all... until i saw this!! So tempted to get this.. BUT.. i already have a mp3 player.. maybe i shld juz get the 'his' watch for Dear? hehe.. but will it look weird? with the earphones attached to the watch.. and for 256mb is $239. Hmm.. second thoughts!! haha..

Listened to 2 new chi albums at my office todae! FIR's wu xian and Vivian hsu's Hen hen ai! Hmm.. i prefer Vivian hsu's songs though.. FIR's songs nothing much special.. and there's a song which is some sort of sequel to their prev album's "Wo men de ai". This lyrics got storyline like continue wad happened to the ger after her bf died.. something abt walking out from memories? Anyway it's called "Ba ai fang kai".

Uploaded the nicest song in Vivian hsu's new album, "Ai xiao de yan jing" under my playlist. She also sang a chi version of Jamelia's Superstar. Will upload it tmr.

Got a movie date with Dear on thurs! hehe.. wad movie shld i watch?

and Dear.. all the best to your exams.. goody luck!! =)

2005-04-10T02:02:00.000+08:00

i wish i can be like my jie, fall asleep once my head touch the pillow.

i wish i can be like elsie, optismistic n often laughs.

i wish...

BUT it's no use wishing. Unless i do something abt it, i will nvr be. And some things i can nvr be.

Saw my fren's fotoz.. den i rem she went for TP prom dinner which was yesterdae. Guess i wun ever get to go any prom dinner.. but at least i'll get to wear formal dress when i attend a wedding end of this mth. Some sort of make up for it?

i dun wana think anymore. Gonna try 2 sleep. Hope after the scans i wun need 2 reformat my pc which so suay kana sypware again. Ciao.

2005-04-09T09:51:00.000+08:00

haha.. Blogging while work! =p But 2dae Sat mah.. so slack! Hehe..

Yesterdae after work.. was walking along with this colleague who's leaving next wk to take care of her teenage kids.. scare they mix with bad company. She said she wished her kids are as guai as mi.. but haha I told her I'm actually not tt guai one.. so i gave her my opinion tt some kids when they reach a certain age, will most prob rebel and do lotza things tt will upset their parents. But muz let them go ahead and make mistakes lor.. den they will learn and change after some time. But tell her all tt oso maybe no use.. Coz the older generation has their own thinking and very hard 2 change one. and anywae.. I'm not tt guai!! Haha…I'm juz more.. reserved! Hee..

Can't wait can't wait to see Dear~~~ although only nvr see him for 3 days! hee.. lalala~~

2005-04-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

finally a day w/o rain. At least not until i've reached home. Nothing much 2 do at work 2dae.. since i've finished sorting and filing the hundreds of invoices yesterdae. Actually can use the net 2 pass the time.. but not 2 sure whether can anot.. later kana scold? So better to be safe than sorry...

so sianz! but i may start designing blogskins again.. coz i found some really nice wallpapers on the net.. so get ready 2 see my new works soon! =p

Nothing much 2 blog le.. xcept tt this Sat is a special dae.. guess? hehe.. our 1yr 1mth ani~! =) Lotza love 2 tt sweetie pie of mine! *muaCkz! Ciao!

2005-04-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

tomorrow will be a better day. Yah.. 2dae is certainly better than yesterdae. But then i juz found out that this might be only the calm before the storm.. will i be a traumatized victim.. or a survivor?

while i was standing in the crowded bus(going 2 meet my Dear), there was this old lady standing beside mi. As i look at her.. i wonder if 1 dae i will end up like her. Erm ya i will la, one day 50yrs later.. but i mean.. aiyah duno how 2 xplain. Now tt i'm working.. it is sorta no more life, since i have onli so little time left. But no matter wad i still wana live a colorful life.. do wad i want 2 do.. so i wun have regrets when i'm old. That's wad i trying 2 say.

and i'm so happy 2 see Dear 2dae!! =D can de-stress and feel so much happier. His mum gave mi this gold kangaroo brooch with opal stone from Australia.. felt so touched.. really appreciate it.

Ok.. it's 1 am. Better go sleep.. dun wana end up like 2dae again overslept.. have to walk so fast until my feet hurts.. and b4 i go.. i miss my frenz!! Elsie, u the most~~ haha.. little miss happy! =p Ciao~

photo taken(by Jeremy) on the dae we went Jurong swimming! Abit hard 2 see, but both of us are smiling(tiredly after all the fun)!

2005-04-04T20:01:00.000+08:00

what will become of mi? I dun dare 2 think of the future...

my cpu make grunting sounds as it installs The Sims 2 University Expansion pack(which is a surprise gift from Dear). Hopefully i can play it after my dinner.

and i've finished reading "Memoirs of a Geisha". Interesting story indeed.

i smelled something nice.. off i go to my dinner. Ciao.

2005-04-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

Alright! i've finally finished designing this blogskin. was even thinking abt designing it when i was trying 2 sleep last nite. Took me quite long to do it.. perhaps i wanted 2 make it as perfect as possible.. since it's gonna be the last?

gimme opinions!! The lucky 1st viewer.. which is of coz Dear.. commented tt the moving pictures are sorta irritating(although i dun really find it so), and could perhaps make the bottom buttons of diff applications clickable, instead of the words of 'Only when i sleep'. What u guys think?

I'm still sianz over the matter of CPF cutting 20% off from my pay.. but my mum said the govt is actually smart in doing so there wun be old beggars everywhere. I suppose it is a gd idea.. since we young people just spend as and when we like.. haha. But tt means i shld find a higher pay job! haiz.. 2 late now anyway.

Ok.. wish mi luck 4 tmr 1st day at work! hehe..

2005-04-03T03:33:00.000+08:00

friday. went down all the way to Jurong, to go swimming again with my frenz! =) It was so much fun.. even though we waited quite some time for the waves which come every 30min.. and the slides! Shiok~

after tt went with elsie to Daiso! The everything-$2 shop.. bought 5 items, including this pretty little blue air-tight glass container which i gonna put cookies in and place at my office! hee.. then we took the long train ride back home...

Sat. spent a slacking day with Dear.. watched "The pacifier" quite a nice show. Read abt movie prices gonna rise.. wkdays from $6.50 to $7, and wkends from $8.50 to $9.50!! Wah.. like tt no need watch movie liao.. buy VCDs watch better(cheaper too)!!

Was actually quite looking forward to 1st day of work.. but i realized CPF contribution will cut off 20%.. means i will only bring home $1k! ... it's too late 2 back out right. Guess i'll just work 1yr and quit to find a better job.. or maybe 2 further my studies. Sianz...

2005-04-01T13:30:00.000+08:00

As much as i love this cat blogskin.. it will have to go... coz i'll be designing a new one during this wkend. Abit can't bear this cat blogskin.. haha but wad for be so attached 2 a blogskin. Anyway the reason is very simple, just wana have a change of scenery(?).. and since i gonna step into adulthood very soon.. i suppose my blog will change too.

will update more soon.

2005-03-31T02:23:00.000+08:00

I'm the TRUE HYPOCRITE.

and dun i deserve it.

2005-03-30T00:55:00.000+08:00

i wanted 2 write an entry for u 2, which will hopefully make things better. But i guess now it's meaningless.

This chinese phrase appears in my mind: People in the circle are confused, people outside the circle sees it clear. The world is ever-changing, people change too, but not easily. When one tried so hard to be a fren, and just end up getting hurt... and one get so sick of people keep telling them abt their flaws and to change... maybe coz i been thru all these and can be so cynical.

Anger flared.. guilt and remorse.. frenships fade.. hearts became cold..

I really dunno what to say. Of coz i hope u guys will make up and be gd frenz again.. but this time round.. i really dunno. Sorry for not being able to... say better stuff? ...

2005-03-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

~my amazing e-bouquet of daisies from Dear~

fotoz taken after swimming tt day

and now is a small boi ask my Dear for his hp no. Haha.

PS: got my Sim pregnant again! haha hope it's a boi this time.

2005-03-28T13:02:00.000+08:00

Not all things can be put into words.

My heart just feels heavy. Troubled. At a loss. Helpless.

Indeed, problems must be solved ASAP. If it doesn't.. it will be like a dormant volcano suddenly erupt.. damn jialat. Otherwise it will be dragged until the feelings became so bitter, tt forgive and forget may be impossible.

Now no more sch.. at home do nothing, end up think even more. Mainly about the future.. roughly have some plans.. but i'm still waiting for the letter from NTU. Perhaps when it finally comes.. i'll be more sure on what to do next.

In the meanwhile.. i'm back to playing The Sims 2. haha.

PS: found a job advert for Admin asst at $1.7,8k!! haha quickly applied! =D

2005-03-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

again. blogging hours before my last exam paper.

can u hear mi diggin' my own grave? can't get my priorities rite.. even at this time i'm more concerned on why i can't save tt new FIR song than studying ERM.

and i'm not feeling tt great... damn my stomach been so fussy.

fine... logging off.

2005-03-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

i'm not in the mood to blog. But somehow.. i feel like i have to write something at least.

Yesterdae swimming was really fun. =)

But i'm slacking, not studying. Staring into space... ask mi anything i'll say "Duno."

Truths can be hurtful. Ignorance is bliss.

Although it seems nothing much can affect mi.. I do feel.. hurt. Sometimes i just brush it aside, sometimes i ponder over it. Many times.. i forget about it.

Seems like i forgot abt lots of things. Erm.. dun wish to think hard to rem.

I'm at a loss. All this are random thoughts or nonsense?

And i have an interview for a perm admin job tmr. Ah.. maybe that's why.

I have nothing better to do. (but actually i do...) and i miss you.

2005-03-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

wahaha i'm so screwed. BI exam paper starts at 9:30am later.

still got more than half to study. (actually is 2 more chapters but the content...) and it's 1:09am now!! went to Downtown east to support Dear in his Groundforce finals.. and lucky got there just in time for his turn. Although he didn't win, he will always be my best flatland rider~! *whee-whee~

and thanks to Dearz, got free access into Escape theme park and played the rides for free! haha.. so shiok! almost screamed my head off.. played the musical dance/chairs, pepsi thingy, kiddy roller coaster, and go cart(beginner with my dear). The last one ended off badly.. coz i ended up the driver when i said i didn't want to drive.. and i realize my phobia(due to my go cart accident yrs ago) is still there. Haa.. so my dreams of getting a car license and a car by this yr *poof! =(

after the award ceremony.. i finally left for home.. was so tired i dozed off at the bustop. Reached home at 8pm.. had my dinner, watched 'LOTR1'.. then went to sleep, so i can wake up at midnite 2 study the whole nite...

and before i finally go n study... Someone asked my bf for his number!! 0.o haha.. my 1st response was "huh??!! who's the idiot!!" but my dear boy told the ger(her cousin is the one who wants to know my bf) he's attached... so cannot. heh.

ok,ok... no more delaying. Wish mi all the best(although i dun deserve it!) =p

2005-03-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i'm never good with farewells. Today's my last dae at work, and i just left.. like tt. Good wad.. keep it simple. But it's been a nice time working there. =)

Makes mi think of really working.. earning money.. spending it on nice restaurant dinners and clothes.. saving some for my dream... car! 0.o haha.. will life ever be so smooth n wonderful for mi? Dun dream on it man...

Wonders when my NTU letter will come.. accept or reject? i prefer the latter... =x

and finally! My temp internet files folder has the songs i listened~ yeah!! can save.. haha..

and tmr is STUDY(whole) DAY! >.<

2005-03-17T01:30:00.000+08:00

haha, i'm back. with onli like 1 day in btwn w/o blogging. =x

hmm.. it's a long story.. but to summarize it, i was very upset over Dearz been 2 busy for mi. Hence all the negative stuff.. thought love is not everything.. but in the end, love is everything. B'coz we love each other so much.. we made-up. Although still can't see him until fri.. i will try to be more understanding. Love u! *muaCkz!

and now.. fotoz time!

mi & dearz at Groundforce qualifiers!

last day of sch!

here's one with our friendly lab tech!

hehe.. abit lazy to write tributes. So here's a short and sweet message to my frenz in tp.
"This 3yrs in tp has been one of the greatest chapter in my life. Glad to have known each and everyone of you.. and thanks for the memories u've left.. no matter how brief it might be. There has been dark and bright moments, but b'coz of them i've learnt and changed. So.. erm... just wana thank all of you for being a fren 2 mi!! =) xie xie.. arigatoo! Life is unpredictable.. and we will fly in all different directions.. but no matter we still keep in touch anot.. u have my heartfelt best wishes in whatever u do! Take care, my fren... "

3 days have passed... without any studying done!! uh-oh... ok,ok. i will wake up at 10am tmr and study!!! Ciao!

2005-03-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

everything's just an illusion.

my heart is too tired to care anymore.

gonna take a break, away from all this.

take care while i'm gone.

2005-03-14T17:08:00.000+08:00

my fire's out. It was nvr burning too bright anyway. What's left? study lor.

damn all along i thought my 1st exam paper is ERM. Just found out it's BI instead. Pretty sure i will end up taking the supp paper for it.

i miss him. When was the last time we spent quality time together? ... last wed. Sighz.

been reading this ger's blog for sometime.. can't help but i must say this. I know there are lotza diff kinds of ppl in this world, but how can anyone just forget a 3,4yrs relationship? Then get a new gf after breaking off with the ex for arnd a mth... while the ex still luv him so much. Upon writing this, i suddenly realize i did something similiar too. But at least for my 3yr relationship, my luv has faded after arnd 2yrs.. it was just meaningless dragging on to 3yrs before we finally ended it. Thinking back.. i should have ended it earlier(but if only it was up to mi) for i can never suit into his superficial world, or even be on the same wavelength as him. Goodbye to the past.

2005-03-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

trying 2 wait for Dearz to reach home and send mi the fotoz to upload here.. but duno when will he be back.

oh well... wad's up with the Internet??!! it's getting worse... can't stand it. Now blogskins is under maintenance, flowerpod database connection got prob, and i can't download any eng songs(oh still possible but speed <3kb/s)!! argh.

anyone watched "yue liang de mi mi/When i fall in love.. with both" show on ch U earlier? i watched from halfway.. couldn't really understand at 1st, but the ending is really touching! quite sad... for the last ger(cecilia chung). It's actually about the stories of 3 girls, who like 2 guys at one time or other... 2 happy endings 1 sad ending. But haha i lazy to go into the storyline..

So far i have done 3 blogskins. Er.. still got lotsa room for improvements! But i suppose it's time for mi to start studying instead of designing blogskins... hehe.

haha.. ok i know i should do a 'Tributes' pg too.. but abit brain-dead already. i shall do one tmr k? Ciao...

2005-03-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

boring boring Sat.

published my blogskin i've done last nite.. and although onli received 4 comments so far.. i'm happy to get a 4.33 rating(out of 5)! =) Take a look here (also under my links).

and i gonna sleep early 2nite. (why would anyone do tt on a sat nite?!) B'coz.. i have to reach Downtowneast tmr at 9am! For dearz flatland competition... to cheer him on and be his personal photographer hehe. So ciao!

2005-03-12T03:25:00.000+08:00

today's last dae of sch.. doesn't really feel like it somehow. It seems like any other normal school day. But my 3yrs of poly life has really ended. Hmm... and oh, i gave little cards to a few significant frenz earlier.. just a small thought to wish them all the best.

maturity has it own prices to pay. It's certainly ain't easy. But if after the end of 3yrs of poly life, reaching the '20' age, i still can't be mature enough.. i dunno what to say abt myself. (haha)

At least i understand this all along. A guy's passions/ambitions is part of his life, he enjoys it and is happy to do so. I cannot bear to see him sad. So i chose to let him be, doing what he wants. Yes, this is indeed a first for mi, him being too busy for mi. But haven't i been the one too busy for him last time too? It's only fair rite...

I will miss you, but knowing you're happy elsewhere doing what is impt 2 u, i'm glad for u too. Can't wait to see you, soon. *Hugz!

PS: In times of super-boredom, inspirations came and i have designed a new blogskin! haha.. take a look at it under 'Goes' > 'My work' link.

P.PS: Forgot 2 mention, watched "Shall we dance?"(vcd) yesterdae, and it's wonderful movie! i give it 4 out of 5 stars! =) Highly recommended.. though it's not a new movie.

2005-03-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

Somehow these few days i don't feel like myself. Duno why.. abit of mental block.

Anyway, i spent a lovely time with my dearz yesterdae for our 1yr ani. Met him at Bishan, had Sakae Sushi student buffet for the 1st time(for mi), finally bought the DMK shoes i want(but somehow at the end of the dae my feets ache), and see see walk walk arnd J8.

Last min no need to go work!(FYI, i'm doing this temp job scanning documents near my hse for $4.50/hr), Yippee! So accompany dearz down to Orchard. He had to attend his Groundforce meeting, so i went over Far east to shop shop. Was looking for this pink denim-like skirt, and in the end i bought one for $30. But rite after buying it, i regret! Could have gotten a similar one at Bugis St for much cheaper wad.. why i so stupid??! Haiz. Wanted to go home n sell it away online.. but dearz said can use belt wad. So see how lor...

Tmr's last dae of sch. Hmm.. dunno.. i feel some sort numbed, cannot think. Ciao.

*~meowz meowz dreaMlanDz~*

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You are a Great Girlfriend

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